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Birthday Card Avalanche

Birthday Card Avalanche

  Celebrating birthdays are hard after someone you love has died. I didn’t want to celebrate my birthday at all 3 months after Madox’s left. I knew how shattered I felt. How angry and alone I was, knowing how broken the world is to take a child at such a young...

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New Year, Same Me

New Year, Same Me

Sorry for going MIA for a while. I was trying to stay distracted by not thinking about my grief. It seems to work. Everyone always says “the holidays must be so hard.” Sure it is. But the every day is so much harder. The reality of it all is always crashing into me,...

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Change of School

Change of School

First day of school came upon us quickly. Maybe I ignored the hints and displays, inverting myself to protect my heart. No school supply shopping. No new clothing requests. We were in our own world, happy for the summer. First day of school still came and reared its...

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5 Years

5 Years

I have seen over the years, posts of parents sharing how long they are without their child, in years, months, days and even hours. What I thought would be interesting, just overwhelmed and saddened me more. 5 years 60 months 261 weeks 1825 days 43800 hours Oh my gawd...

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Coincidence

Coincidence

Today Marco and I went to the Valour FC soccer match. Valin was sitting with his soccer team as they all got a free ticket for winning the provincials the other day, so his aisle seat next to us sat empty. As we were watching the game, in the row in front of us, a man...

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Robbed Experience

Robbed Experience

End of school is tough on me. The relaxed nature of the kids having fun with their classmates. The feel of summer with kids biking to school, wearing shorts and staying up later than they should. Madox always loved the last few weeks of school, but in elementary, they...

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Father of Two

Father of Two

Another Father’s Day has come and gone, and missing Madox has not lessened. Valin and I planned a nice day away for Marco. We planned a day of hiking out in the Whiteshell, called Pine Point Rapids (Trail). It was a long drive but worth it. The air was fresh, the...

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Title of Mom

Title of Mom

Mother’s Day. A day of pure joy and pride. A day surrounded by love, kisses and hugs. A day of homemade cards and gifts. The life before cancer. Mother’s day now has a new meaning to me, as a bereaved mom. Although I am proud of the amazing humans that call me mom,...

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We Were Never Alone

We Were Never Alone

Today at work, my coworker I haven’t seen in a while, walked up to me and gave me a big hug “So sorry. Diagnosis day.” I was taken aback, as most people try not to mention days that are or can be difficult for me. I normally don’t show emotion at work (put on that...

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March 7

March 7

5 years today. 5 years ago today we heard those words no parent wants to hear. 5 years ago we met a murderer, and it was attacking our son. No length of time will soften the hurt. We will forever remember that day, that specific moment. That walk down the bright...

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