Not So Sweet 16

Not So Sweet 16

Happy birthday baby boy. You should be 16 years old this year. I don’t even know what to say. Leading up to your birthday I felt broken. How can I not? The forever contemplation of what you would look like, how tall you would be, if you would be driving, who you...
The Month That Starts It All

The Month That Starts It All

  Many parents go through PTSD after their child has been diagnosed with cancer, and definitely after their child has died. I have written about that in previous blogs. Many don’t fathom the extent of that trauma for parents. Speaking to people, some have...
Another Year

Another Year

  Another year Another year that will not know Madox and his energy Another year we will not create new memories with or of Madox Another year we will wonder who Madox would have been Another year of worry, that memories of the past will be forgotten Another year...
Guilt For The Win

Guilt For The Win

  Holidays are tough. Coupled with a birthday, and the day can come screeching to a halt. Glaring reminders of who is missing in our lives, and everything that was lost, leading up to those days. Halloween, Thanksgiving, my birthday, then Christmas. Will it ever...
September Brings Change

September Brings Change

  September is always a tough month after losing Madox. Not only do we host our charity’s Superhero run every September, but it’s the start of a new school year. Another grade Madox will not enter. Another school he never experienced. Another...
6 Years

6 Years

  August 8th. A day that will always be a black cloud for us. A day unlike any other. The day we had to kiss our son goodbye forever.   Our hardest day had continued on from the previous few difficult days. Madox was struggling. Madox was dying. The reality...