Radiation

Radiation

  If you didn’t know, May is Brain Tumour Awareness Month. Honestly, I never knew this before Madox’s diagnosis. I was blissfully ignorant about some important causes, until one was slapping me in the face. In the past few years, I’ve tried to...
Anxiety with the unknown

Anxiety with the unknown

  Life changes after watching your child die. Things are more important. Things are less important. We see things differently. Some better, some worse. But we change. Sometimes we become hyper vigilant about things we normally would brush off or deal with in a...
Another birthday of wondering

Another birthday of wondering

  Happy birthday my sweet boy. I can’t believe you would be 15 years old today. Such a fun time you would have had, to be 15. You would be getting closer to signing up for driving lessons. More independent with your every day decisions. More time with your...
Birthday Card Avalanche

Birthday Card Avalanche

  Celebrating birthdays are hard after someone you love has died. I didn’t want to celebrate my birthday at all 3 months after Madox’s left. I knew how shattered I felt. How angry and alone I was, knowing how broken the world is to take a child at such a young...
New Year, Same Me

New Year, Same Me

Sorry for going MIA for a while. I was trying to stay distracted by not thinking about my grief. It seems to work. Everyone always says “the holidays must be so hard.” Sure it is. But the every day is so much harder. The reality of it all is always crashing into me,...
Change of School

Change of School

First day of school came upon us quickly. Maybe I ignored the hints and displays, inverting myself to protect my heart. No school supply shopping. No new clothing requests. We were in our own world, happy for the summer. First day of school still came and reared its...